Peacock Feathers

Hey everyone! Nicky here 🙂

I am pleased to say that my digital painting skills are starting to improve. From watching endless amounts of tutorials and figuring out the buttons on my tablet (Finally) I think I’m getting the hang of it 🙂

Check out my peacock that I drew recently:
Peacock design

Also, I submitted my peacock to Threadless, an online site for t-shirt designs, and is now in the process of voting. If I get enough votes, Threadless will fund it so people can purchase it!

So, follow the link below and vote!



I am finally taking major strides in my digital painting endeavours, which is pretty impressive in my opinion. After having my tablet for almost a year now and constantly practicing various styles, I think I’m finally making progress. This digital … Continue reading

Random Illustrations by Anna Dittmann

These illustrations are just wonderful! With artists making digital art like Anna Dittmann, this is something that I would to work on.

Random Illustrations by Anna Dittmann.

via Random Illustrations by Anna Dittmann.

Making Art A Personal Statement

Suicide painting (2012)

This is a painting I completed in February using Acrylic on canvas. The task was to choose a social issue in the world today and create a visual representation of the issue. While people were deciding to do racism, greenhouse gases, sex, etc. I was stumbling on what issue I would portray. For me, I wanted to take the opportunity to express something personal and meaningful through my painting and picking the right issue was really difficult. I initially wanted to paint about Learning Disabilities, but I didn’t think it would create an impact. I needed something offsetting, disturbing almost. So, I decided to use the issue of Teen Suicide.

The idea came to me through a friend I met at camp, who told me that because of his being bullied at school, he started becoming suicidal and started slitting his wrists. I felt very bad after he told me and even started to cry because he is a really amazing person and doesn’t deserve to feel that way. I also was reminded of how I felt in the eighth grade. This inspired the idea of teen suicide.

Below is my artist statement:


Have you ever been to that state of mind where nothing makes sense? That no matter how well you piece together the puzzle, there is always something missing? Have you ever been to that state of mind where you wish you were dead?

I can say that I have.

I began thinking suicidal thoughts when I was in the eighth grade. That period in my life is one of my darkest memories. I remember coming home almost everyday and crying alone in my room, wishing I were dead. Why? I had many problems learning academically and socializing at school and was bullied for being “weird”, “stupid”, and was even called “a fat a**”. Having people talk that way about you is difficult to live with. I was isolated, so I felt that if I killed myself, nobody would care and that nobody would stop me. I began to fantasize slitting my wrists, hanging myself, overdosing…

Have you ever realized that this has happened to me until now?

Probably Not.

This is the issue that needs to be addressed; teens that are suffering from bullying may be becoming suicidal and nobody may ever find out until it’s too late. I never killed myself, but it doesn’t mean that I never wanted to.


This issue is very important to me. I know this may be a sensitive subject to talk about, but that is part of the problem; lack of communication. I felt like I could go to absolutely no one about my problem, not even my parents. They knew that I had problems about learning and socializing, but they never knew until this year that I was becoming suicidal.

I’m very pleased with myself that I was able to complete this kind of project because I was able to express a very personal moment in my life through my passion of art. If you are wondering if I am ok, don’t worry I am. Through art, I can freely put my heart and soul into my work, and I am thankful for my passion.